Felt like expressing myself once again, you know I could really get the hang of this. I mean yes, it is very sad and pathetic to be living in the past but that's where I want to be the most, I can't move on from the best times and experiences of my life. You know before my life changed for the better, ah listen to me man, explaining how this changed my life like some BS ad convincing you to "Quit your job, and make more money". I lived in Darwin for most of my infant to primary years and I've made friends there that I still remember to this day, not all of them. You had Tamana (I think that's how you spell his name, still the way it sounds. Close enough), Joshua, Gabby, Shaun, Riley, Kevin and Jihad is all I remember from my primary years. Then my father got a better job as a Concord consultant in Jakarta and had a chance to make big money (I mean he did make big money and I mean big) and my life in Indonesia was a breeze. I had maids and drivers whom I'd become friends with and are still in contact with until this day.
The first time I was packing for Indonesia, I was scared honestly. I didn't know what to expect and who I'd meet, there was a lot of news back then about mixed children or Caucasian children being kidnapped and their organs harvested or being sold to slavery or sex slaves and it was terrifying to say the least but I'm fortunate to not experience anything like that and I'm blessed not to think about it anymore until now. The first school I went to was SCB, short for Sekolah Cita Buana. You could say it's where a lot of posh kids would be especially if you're half white and your parents made a lot of money than the average locals in the country. There I became a spoiled brat, just to show that I also was rich but my parents weren't spoiling me (I mean I could've asked for a lot, but I had respect for my parents not to ask for a lot unless otherwise offered). I mean I was still pretty spoiled when it came to clothes or shoes, had a pretty big collection of shoes actually and still keep some of my old ones to remember the good times. I had a problem back then, honestly I'm not bragging but I used to like to date girls and switch partners all the time. I'd stick with one girl one week and then the next week break up with her and date her best friend. I was a jerk but it's junior high, feelings didn't matter once we grew up.
Year 7 is where I pretty much matured and realized that I needed to be neat and clean, that's when I started combing my hair, watching my weight and playing as much sport as possible because that's what I like and it's easy to impress a girl when you're in the Soccer team or Basketball team, and you go from school to school making friends. It was a blast. Then the end of Year 7 came and my mom was upset I wasn't doing good in school and hanging out with a lot of girls, so she did what any other reasonable mother would do to discipline their children. Boarding school. Not just any boarding school, a religious one. You see I'm mixed Indonesian/Australian muslim and she sent me there when she out of now where became religious and it didn't bother me. She wasn't strict, but she'd suggest things that are better to avoid "sins". I felt like shit everyday until the last day of my school in SCB and I was so ashamed to be sent to a boarding school, I had to lie to my friends about going to another international school to impress them. So I told them I was moving to Australian International School (which I didn't) and I know most of them ate it up but realized in the end, so that's where I got the habit of forgetting everyone and not to contact them if I moved school. I'd have the regular messages from my old classmates to come once a year to a reunion to meet up and I'd decline, I didn't become socially awkward but I'd become more of a person to push people away that were close to me instead of staying in that friendship.
Al-Taqwa College was the boarding school I went to, I had literal dreams about what this place would be like and nightmares of what people would treat me like just being a mixed child. You see, international schools were more accustomed to white/asian mix children because it was a school for the posh and usually they were all rich if the child was mixed. My mother didn't care and said I needed to stop being so spoiled and cope with it. I thought all the children in boarding school where poor kids and they'd make fun of me being a different skin tone child than them. But honest to God, boarding school changed my life for the better. It made me appreciate the smallest things and forget clothes with brands and not to judge people. They taught me how to respect the good things in life without the actual good things, if that makes any sense. The first day I was really nervous and my guess was correct, no one there was mixed. Everyone was pure Indonesian and I was the only white mixed kid in that school, which bothered me in the beginning but not the duration of the stay. I literally cried that night my mom left me saying "Why don't you love me, you hate me don't you mom?" and we always get a laugh out of that but after months go by. Everyone in the school was pretty much considered a friend, I met my first true love there and being with her changed my perspective on how to be with women forever. There was two buildings on the property, the front building was the administration office, praying floor, girls dorm rooms, and the upstairs was the cafeteria. The second building was the classrooms and upstairs were the boys dorms. The property had massive lands, legit until the rice paddies below the chill were considered our land pretty much.
I spent the best moments of my life in that boarding school and considered all the boys in my dorm brothers. When I went there, there weren't a lot of people. The school was legit still being built, so the population of students were below 100. That's how everyone connected so well, I've had a lot of competition with many of surrounding schools and boarding schools and basically had a lot of fun. Made more friends than I ever have but had to recreate a FB profile due to me not wanting too many people on my friends list since it was useless. After Year 8, I never dated anyone else because I was in a relationship with this girl for a few years, she made me feel like I was married (in a good way). There was a lot of intimate moments with her in school and outside of school that changed the way I look at relationships just being a "holding hands couple". Had my first true kiss with her and stayed with her for a long time. My first kiss was in Year 5? or Year 4 with this Jasmine girl, you can't ever forget the first girl you dated in life. At least not for me. I considered that fake love not real love because it was only for a few weeks or months, no real connection. Continuing with the story, our field trips were sometimes shit and sometimes amazing. There was this one field trip where we went up this mountain, legit stayed up there for a night with nothing but wooden floors and a cold cold cold temperature. It was as if there were two ACs in that room under 16C and most of the guys didn't bring blankets so we spooned each other and that was the best brother bonding shit I've experienced. There was this other time where we went to Lombok and went to "A Thousand Islands" and stayed there in a small village and experiencing what it felt like to be a villager to make us realize we have it good and should appreciate everything we have.
We had Leadership camps for boys and girls for School president? I think. It was all about how you could show how you worked well in a team, directing a team, getting an objective complete, and we'd actually have to camp outside to do this. It'd be a couple days long and finally it would be the girls turn and then after everything is finished. They would announce who was the most efficient by vote. As I've said, that was the best moments of my life. Boarding school. Then Year 10 hit and my parents told me that they want to go back to Australia but instead of Darwin, they'd want to go to Perth. So I spent half a year in Year 10 in Al-Taqwa and actually cried and told everyone I'd miss them. It was heartbreaking for me because my relationship and my friendship needed to go as well and I knew that would change me a lot, but in all my life I've never have been so close to anyone, besides the boys and girls in Al-Taqwa. Thank you for giving me the best years of my life, I still love and miss all of you until this day. I hope you're all doing well and I wasn't there to visit one of my friends funerals but I just wanted to say that Bagas was a great kid, he was smart and he was really funny. Loved him like a brother, we had our ups and downs but you were probably the closest to me in that school. Hope your sister and parents are doing well and may Allah bless you brother. We'll meet again in the next life.
Enough of getting emotional, finally I moved to Perth. Got a house in Langford and stayed there for a good 2 years, made friends with a lot of people but I was distant to them because I was still handling a lot of pain due to the relocating to Perth. Dated one girl in Perth and wanted to date another girl after that relationship but I wanted her to do better than me. So right now, I'd rather be single and focus on my future than worrying about some date. If anyone is reading this, thank you for reliving the moments of my life with me. I'm only writing this stuff to make myself feel better and reminisce about the glory days of my life, I mean I'm only 20 and I know I still have a long way (If God wills it) to go and make more memories but that's what made me the person I am today, my past.
The first time I was packing for Indonesia, I was scared honestly. I didn't know what to expect and who I'd meet, there was a lot of news back then about mixed children or Caucasian children being kidnapped and their organs harvested or being sold to slavery or sex slaves and it was terrifying to say the least but I'm fortunate to not experience anything like that and I'm blessed not to think about it anymore until now. The first school I went to was SCB, short for Sekolah Cita Buana. You could say it's where a lot of posh kids would be especially if you're half white and your parents made a lot of money than the average locals in the country. There I became a spoiled brat, just to show that I also was rich but my parents weren't spoiling me (I mean I could've asked for a lot, but I had respect for my parents not to ask for a lot unless otherwise offered). I mean I was still pretty spoiled when it came to clothes or shoes, had a pretty big collection of shoes actually and still keep some of my old ones to remember the good times. I had a problem back then, honestly I'm not bragging but I used to like to date girls and switch partners all the time. I'd stick with one girl one week and then the next week break up with her and date her best friend. I was a jerk but it's junior high, feelings didn't matter once we grew up.
Year 7 is where I pretty much matured and realized that I needed to be neat and clean, that's when I started combing my hair, watching my weight and playing as much sport as possible because that's what I like and it's easy to impress a girl when you're in the Soccer team or Basketball team, and you go from school to school making friends. It was a blast. Then the end of Year 7 came and my mom was upset I wasn't doing good in school and hanging out with a lot of girls, so she did what any other reasonable mother would do to discipline their children. Boarding school. Not just any boarding school, a religious one. You see I'm mixed Indonesian/Australian muslim and she sent me there when she out of now where became religious and it didn't bother me. She wasn't strict, but she'd suggest things that are better to avoid "sins". I felt like shit everyday until the last day of my school in SCB and I was so ashamed to be sent to a boarding school, I had to lie to my friends about going to another international school to impress them. So I told them I was moving to Australian International School (which I didn't) and I know most of them ate it up but realized in the end, so that's where I got the habit of forgetting everyone and not to contact them if I moved school. I'd have the regular messages from my old classmates to come once a year to a reunion to meet up and I'd decline, I didn't become socially awkward but I'd become more of a person to push people away that were close to me instead of staying in that friendship.
Al-Taqwa College was the boarding school I went to, I had literal dreams about what this place would be like and nightmares of what people would treat me like just being a mixed child. You see, international schools were more accustomed to white/asian mix children because it was a school for the posh and usually they were all rich if the child was mixed. My mother didn't care and said I needed to stop being so spoiled and cope with it. I thought all the children in boarding school where poor kids and they'd make fun of me being a different skin tone child than them. But honest to God, boarding school changed my life for the better. It made me appreciate the smallest things and forget clothes with brands and not to judge people. They taught me how to respect the good things in life without the actual good things, if that makes any sense. The first day I was really nervous and my guess was correct, no one there was mixed. Everyone was pure Indonesian and I was the only white mixed kid in that school, which bothered me in the beginning but not the duration of the stay. I literally cried that night my mom left me saying "Why don't you love me, you hate me don't you mom?" and we always get a laugh out of that but after months go by. Everyone in the school was pretty much considered a friend, I met my first true love there and being with her changed my perspective on how to be with women forever. There was two buildings on the property, the front building was the administration office, praying floor, girls dorm rooms, and the upstairs was the cafeteria. The second building was the classrooms and upstairs were the boys dorms. The property had massive lands, legit until the rice paddies below the chill were considered our land pretty much.
I spent the best moments of my life in that boarding school and considered all the boys in my dorm brothers. When I went there, there weren't a lot of people. The school was legit still being built, so the population of students were below 100. That's how everyone connected so well, I've had a lot of competition with many of surrounding schools and boarding schools and basically had a lot of fun. Made more friends than I ever have but had to recreate a FB profile due to me not wanting too many people on my friends list since it was useless. After Year 8, I never dated anyone else because I was in a relationship with this girl for a few years, she made me feel like I was married (in a good way). There was a lot of intimate moments with her in school and outside of school that changed the way I look at relationships just being a "holding hands couple". Had my first true kiss with her and stayed with her for a long time. My first kiss was in Year 5? or Year 4 with this Jasmine girl, you can't ever forget the first girl you dated in life. At least not for me. I considered that fake love not real love because it was only for a few weeks or months, no real connection. Continuing with the story, our field trips were sometimes shit and sometimes amazing. There was this one field trip where we went up this mountain, legit stayed up there for a night with nothing but wooden floors and a cold cold cold temperature. It was as if there were two ACs in that room under 16C and most of the guys didn't bring blankets so we spooned each other and that was the best brother bonding shit I've experienced. There was this other time where we went to Lombok and went to "A Thousand Islands" and stayed there in a small village and experiencing what it felt like to be a villager to make us realize we have it good and should appreciate everything we have.
We had Leadership camps for boys and girls for School president? I think. It was all about how you could show how you worked well in a team, directing a team, getting an objective complete, and we'd actually have to camp outside to do this. It'd be a couple days long and finally it would be the girls turn and then after everything is finished. They would announce who was the most efficient by vote. As I've said, that was the best moments of my life. Boarding school. Then Year 10 hit and my parents told me that they want to go back to Australia but instead of Darwin, they'd want to go to Perth. So I spent half a year in Year 10 in Al-Taqwa and actually cried and told everyone I'd miss them. It was heartbreaking for me because my relationship and my friendship needed to go as well and I knew that would change me a lot, but in all my life I've never have been so close to anyone, besides the boys and girls in Al-Taqwa. Thank you for giving me the best years of my life, I still love and miss all of you until this day. I hope you're all doing well and I wasn't there to visit one of my friends funerals but I just wanted to say that Bagas was a great kid, he was smart and he was really funny. Loved him like a brother, we had our ups and downs but you were probably the closest to me in that school. Hope your sister and parents are doing well and may Allah bless you brother. We'll meet again in the next life.
Enough of getting emotional, finally I moved to Perth. Got a house in Langford and stayed there for a good 2 years, made friends with a lot of people but I was distant to them because I was still handling a lot of pain due to the relocating to Perth. Dated one girl in Perth and wanted to date another girl after that relationship but I wanted her to do better than me. So right now, I'd rather be single and focus on my future than worrying about some date. If anyone is reading this, thank you for reliving the moments of my life with me. I'm only writing this stuff to make myself feel better and reminisce about the glory days of my life, I mean I'm only 20 and I know I still have a long way (If God wills it) to go and make more memories but that's what made me the person I am today, my past.
